Sunday, May 13, 2007

My first Mothers Day!

Well, its my first MOTHERS DAY...and I have mixed feelings. I feel SO blessed to just have D, he is the perfect gift. But I can't help but be envious of those who got MD gifts. I got a poem and a handprint that D did in school, and a free meal at Grandys this evening. But maybe I kinda thought the day would be, I dunno, just MAGICAL, and it was kind of a let down. We hung out at home all day, just laid around and played. And then met up with some other single moms at Grandys since they had free meals for moms. Woo.
In years past, I always dreaded Mothers Day. My mom sucks and I moved out when I was 16. She has almost NO part of D and I's life. And probably never will, at her own choice. He's seen her maybe 4 times since I got him back in August. I just HATE that I have a mom out there who isn't a mom. It kills me sometimes. How can a mom not want her own flesh and blood in her life??? To see what they do each day, hear how their day went...D isn't even my own flesh and blood and I can't imagine him ever not being my son!! I just want a normal mom, one who dearly loves her kids and grandkid, and would want to visit us, and be a part of our life. I know, my grandma and aunts love him, but its not the same. It can't be. So I am a bit down today. I'll get over it.
Anyway, here's some pics of our day.

Happy Mothers Day, Mama!

Strike a Pose!

Mama gets a free meal!!

I get an outing!

Yummy yummy!!!!

1 comment:

Carol L said...

I didn't know you kept a blog here on blogspot! It's a good'un too! Yay!

Happy belated Mother's Day!!! I suspect a lot of moms feel things similar to what you have described - especially if they're still raising little ones. I mean, messes don't stop being made just because it's Mother's Day. Diapers still need to be changed, etc. Then some mothers don't have their own mothers to fall back on because they're no longer here in this earth. Then there are those mothers with less than their ideal relationship with their own moms.

Then there are mothers who've suffered miscarriages - sometimes multiple miscarriages and some who've had children die.

And then there are the most neglected and least acknowledged moms on the face of the planet (in my own admittedly biased opinion, anyway): birth moms who've given their children up for adoption. Some have given their children up voluntarily as in cases like mine and some involuntarily.

So, yeah, for the past 15 years, I've kind of gotten used to Mother's Day being a bit of a letdown. On the bright side, whenever someone does acknowledge me on Mother's Day, it is a very pleasant and unexpected surprise that means a lot.

It's wonderful to be able to share this journey of motherhood with you, Brandie. You are a blessing and an inspiration for sure!

Love you,
Carol :)